Daily Diaries

"Had a dream about flying through clouds. Felt like a memory more than a dream."
this is what chat gpt included here as an example of a text ...
...poetic that's for sure.

But wouldn't say that today was extremely poetic. And writing a message in a code between p's and div's feels like madness to an extent. But I'm actually happy with how the website turned out so far! Much better compared to what we started with.... 🤡

This is what it was at first:

It actually was really cute. Mostly because of the eugh cat tho lol.

I feel like a programmer. I never wanted to be one tho. I didn't even like computer science at school... I did understand it up until there was something about Python... I prefer them as animals. They're less scary than computer languages.

Although ngl, it is understandable (or maybe I'm just smart️🧚‍♀️), but only if you are not being hurried to understand and keep up with computer nerds who learnt Python at three.

I'm also really happy about the purple flower I now have as the tab icon (favicon??). It adds more character 🤌 ya feel me

And this 👇 was me practicing inserting pics. The photo was taken almost three years ago though. Has some old energy residue.. 🥱 but the pic itself is nice:

This is my old leaves pic!

Wanted to write about one thing that keeps worrying me since yesterday...

One of my childhood friends (been friends since 1st grade) is marrying a guy who... well.. isn't exactly someone you would wish to marry, or so I thought.

He's manipulative, gaslight-y and she's staying mainly because of the money, tech (he gifted her stuff and said that he would want it back if they were to break up), and a passport (she wants to move to the country he's from). She's basically betraying herself. And it doesn't make me happy about all of it.

And the worst part is that I can't see how I can accept someone's self-betrayal without it feeling as if I'm ok with betrayals. Because if someone around me keeps doing something that hurts them and I stay by their side, it then means that I'm supporting them betraying themselves.

This stuff is weirdly similar to Pride & Prejudice (one of my fav books and TV shows (1995 version!!!). It's hilarious and horrible to "be in it".

SPOILER ALERT ‼️

The Charlotte Lucas arc... where she marries Mr Collins...

So yeah.... another sad part is that there's no Mr Darcy for me(yet?)! But also maybe I'm not Elizabeth Bennett after all.

Realised that I'm lowkey obsessed with blending stuff now. And it's not even "got a new blender, now I'm blending everything" type of situation

I've just started watching what I eat too carefully, so got nothing left but to blend stuff...
Don't get me wrong! I'm not yet blending things that aren't supposed to be blended.

I found cashew nuts in a drawer and realised that cashew butter/urbech exists... so I blended cashew nuts. And at first my blender got warm (that's not normal) - I added some water and it turned out pretty nice.
I know that "rEaL OneS" are normally done without any additives, even water. But those aren't normally made with 500WT blenders, I suppose!
I then tried it and it was kinda meh, because I don't like cashews as nuts, like eating them raw isn't what I do. BUT THEN I added a pinch of salt... and oh boy... who knew that salt can transform things SO MUCH??

So long story short - now cashew butter is my fav butter/urbech. And the homemade one! Not sure if I'll like a store-bought one. But maybe at some point I will, will see.
And I'm not saying "cashew butter is my fav butter" because I tried only cashew butter and suddenly decided that it's now my lifeline.

I tried almond urbech (will be saying urbech because it's the term for blended nuts without sweeteners or anything) too. Lots and lots of people were praising it at some point. But it's so weird tbh.. it's not the same to eating almonds raw (at some point almonds were my fav nuts), those are more milky than an almond urbech. It's also really dry. It's spreadable, but idk how else to explain the dryness that you feel when eating it. Not too pleasant.

And now I'm almost about to blend Styrian pumpkin seeds that I have... I've never seen Styrian pumpkin seeds urbech/butters. Only 'regular' pumpkin seeds ones.

That's why I'm saying that I'm obsessed with blending things...
I don't eat white sugar or wheat flour, and these days even living without honey cause got a rash 🤡 so been going crazy. I'm also out of bread... so any butter or urbech type stuff would be weird to say the least.

Realised that I don't even have pics of my cashew butter! Cause I ate it all too fast! But let me attach some other pics 🥜 #recipe

this is the closest it gets to seeing the paste... one toast (on the left) is with almond urbech, another one is with coconut paste 👇 more on it there

I tried coconut paste as well. But so far only the one made of coconut chips, it was fine when chilled, not when room temp. Dunno if that's the case with all coconut butters/pastes/urbeches. Here's a close-up pic:

it's extremely tropical. I LOVED it. Still not in the Bahamas (joking, would prefer Greece), so doing my best to feel as if I am 🧚‍♀️

Wait... now I got myself thinking... what do Bahamas look like.... I might like Bahamas not less than I like Greece...

Yup. Checked out Bahamas, and I would very well tolerate it(them?). But it seems to be more crowded than some places in Greece, so a specific mood would be necessary for the visit. Some kind of social-butterfly mode.......

Really like the idea of swimming with pigs though
this pic actually makes me want to go there... it looks weirdly relaxing...
The main thing is that it's really FAR. Across the Atlantic. So it would only work if I were to visit all the countries I want to visit from that side of the world... and that would require quite a bit of emotional preparation. Would need rest and comfort.

But wait for me, pigs and seagulls. One day......

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